Look at me, sleeping so late. That’s … not good. I’ve recently developed the horrible habit of waking up at 6am and not being able to go back to sleep until hours later, when I most desperately need to go back to sleep. So I do, and then I end up having to FORCE myself out of bed at 10:30, as demonstrated today. It’s awful. I mean, it’s not the end of the world now, but it will be in a week or two. That is to say, it will lead to the end of my world if I continue waking up at 10:30 in the dang morning.
Ohmigod, just re-reading that opening paragraph is undeniable proof that I need to get my act together. I’m annoying myself.
And, dudes, I still have to take down the Christmas tree.
What has happened to me???
My day-to-day goals now include: going to the store, or leaving the house in general, or making the bed. And I rarely achieve any of them. Forget the bare light bulb hanging on Keith’s side of the bed that just needs a dang lampshade. Or the open wiring hanging on my side of the bed that needs, you know, to be wired, a light bulb and a lamp shade. Or the wall of curtains in our bedroom that has yet to be ironed or hemmed. Or our new kitchen nook that … forget it, I’m not even going into that.
I’m not depressed or anything – quite the opposite. I just don’t feel like it. “It” being anything.
I still have fun working with my brides and have lots of really exciting, gorgeous projects in the works. It’s just the other stuff, you know? The stuff I always love to do. I still love thinking about it all, I just don’t feel like doing any of it.
Winters are tough. It’s not even that cold this year, but it’s not warm. And it’s always gray. I spend all of my time thinking about vacation. So maybe I am down. I just really want sunny days again.
I think I need to leave the dang house, you guys.
I couldn’t even find a funny picture for this post, because all of the winter images without snow were seriously depressing. So, here’s a picture of an adorable puppy wearing an adorable coat:
Thank you for sharing that picture! Man, I hear you on everything else. I was thinking along these same lines just now. I woke up at 1pm today. Unacceptable. I have work to do and a house to fix, but here I am waking up at 1 and thinking about the beach.
If I didn’t have to go to work, I’d be sleeping until then too! Unfortunately I do have to go to work, which really cuts back on my “Stuff I actually want to be doing” time (which doesn’t include chores…)
Ph my! I totally relate to your post, dear. I am Serenity, I just started following your blog in the past few days and I totally like what I see. This is my first comment. Though my fatigue is medical related, totally opposite from yours. Today seems to be dragging on…My mind thinks it is an hour ahead when it actually isn’t. I loathe the winter and the cold. I feel so claustrophobic in the winter too. I do not work for I am on disability due to all my medical problems. I stay at home all the time. I hardly leave the house. My friends never want to do anything with me or say they are too busy or have any plans or some rubbish excuse. So here I stay. But anyways…I love your tutorials. That is the main reason I started following your blog because I love to do DIY’s and I am a bride to be…three years down the road hahaha. Anyways, you keep your chin up, dear and a smile upon your face and you will be just fine. xo Oh, I have a blog of sorts if you want to check it out…www.lilvampgurl.wordpress.com. Cheers!
I’m more upbeat than I sometimes am when the doldrums get me, but….after finishing my degree, fussing over a sister’s wedding and pregnancy (still ongoing), and my own wedding last month, I suddenly am finding myself with lots of time to sleep in. And i’m not loving it. Normally I am excited and refreshed during winter-time! I just need things to do! Here’s to the both of us finding our way out of the “blah.”
You guys are awesome – thanks for your comments! May we all feel energized and awesome again SOON! xoxo
I, too, struggle being motivated at this time of year and I live in sunny Southern CA! But when I lived in San Francisco (foggy all the time, even in summer) I really noticed the difference in my mood. Have you tried full spectrum lightbulbs? They helped me in SF, and are supposed to help with seasonal affective disorder, which you may have. Trust me- I recognize the signs of even mild depression from personal experience. If nothing else, this may be your body telling you to cut yourself some slack. (I keep telling myself the same thing, so easier said than done, of course!)