I believe this is what is referred to as getting one’s groove back. I don’t know if it’s come across in my posts over the last few months, but it has been rough over here – overwhelming, sad, exhausting. And we still have sad stuff going on. Keith’s side of the family has been forced to deal with more illness and death than is acceptable. These wonderful people have had enough, universe. Back off. And I’ve been carrying around my own personal grief since December. I had a miscarriage. It was my first pregnancy and at first we were all SO HAPPY. And then Keith and I went in for the second ultrasound and . . . nothing. No heartbeat. I had surgery to complete what my body wasn’t doing on its own and then was left feeling completely altered and empty. Heartbreaking doesn’t begin to touch what that feels like. Dealing with the depression was so exhausting on its own that I didn’t have the energy to stitch a seam, let alone run a business, and I was going NUTS (especially since the pregnancy was also exhausting, so I basically hadn’t worked since returning from the NY market in October). I was seriously worried I wasn’t going to get any of my projects done. And then . . .
I started to feel better.
And ohmigosh, you guys, I almost feel better than I’ve ever felt before. Stronger, more aware. And I’m suddenly able to see all of the amazing things that have happened in just the past month. Tons of bridal appointments and orders – I’ve brought in more sales in the last month than in the entire last quarter (um typing that sentence just about made my brain explode). I’ve got people in here working with me and I’m accepting new appointments with reckless abandon, because, dudes, I got this. And everyday this week I’ve gotten more and more good news. Even putting together all of my year-end tax info hasn’t bummed me out! And believe me, seeing how much money I put into this business last year, should seriously bum me out. But no, I’m good. I’M GOOD.
And I know a lot of that is because of all of you. I’m constantly astounded by how much support I get through you guys. It makes me cry when I think about it. You’re all so awesome. And I love you.
Thank you SO MUCH.